Just wanted to say that I know the new information you received was painful & hard to take. We are all here for you & certainly understand.
You are right that when your sitch calms down & settles some that your W will more than likely be more receptive to good feelings about you. That's been the case in all my relationships. In fact, I've rarely seen it unfold otherwise. I guess that's why they say time is your friend, no?
Wait 48 hrs b/f doing anything & you'll be glad you did. Being Ms. KneeJerk reaction, I have a hard time w/this also.