Well, I am back in the real world. I had a really good time on my vacation. It was great to get away for a few days and clear my head. I have decided that I am done with this marriage. I don't think that my H has it in him to turn in to the man that I want. There is so much water under the bridge at this point.

I have not heard from him since the nasty tm last Tuesday. I'm sure he heard through the grapevine somehow that I was gone. I am going to look into finding my own attorney and see what my options are. I am guessing that he still didn't contact his. I don't want to be the one to have to file, but at this point that might be my only option. I'm tired of waiting on him and listening to the lies.

I feel more confident now than I have in months. I have a lot to offer and I am moving on with my life. He is only holding me back. Eventually, I hope that I will find a man that appreciates me for who I am and loves only me.

On a side note, my mil says that my sil says the OW is someone that everyone hates. She thinks that she knows everything. That makes me feel a little better, but then again it makes me wonder why my H is with someone like that when a coworker of mine last week told me that I was one of the nicest, kindest people he knows and that is after going through this. Hopefully, life has a strange way of working out.

[quote]Why did you pay his insurances (I can understand the mortgage, since I assume you were living in the house)? [\quote]
I paid his health insurance for my own sanity. He did not hold a stable job until March, and I was afraid if he got hurt and was laid up in a hospital, I would be liable for thousands of dollars in medical bills. He has been hurt 2x in the last 7 months, so living the way he is, he is high risk. The other reason is that I am too nice. Well, I am not going to be nice to him anymore. I won't be mean, but I am not going out of my way anymore. If he wants to treat me like sh$t, he will see what life is like without me in it. As far as I am concerned, the only reason that we need to talk at this point to settle the D, and the attorneys might be doing that if he fights me.