Introspection, Growth, and Acceptance

[galing]

Hi everyone.

I feel at peace. I went camping this weekend. Oddly, it was something I realize the old me would not have appreciated, enjoyed, or probably have done. I am so glad that person is gone. Can't change the past.... but certainly going to live for the present and be the person I want to be now and into my future. There were fireflies everywhere in the fields, cozy fires, stars illuminating the sky, the sounds and smells of the outdoors, and good friends and family. It was a romantic setting and one that I hope to enjoy in the future with someone special. I can definitely see myself going camping in my future and enjoying that with friends and with a man. I thought last night about how my H and I never did that. I wish we had, those would be memories I would like to have. But we weren't the same then, I wasn't the same then, I had some sadness but reality and acceptance in that thought, and excitement in thinking about my future and what it will hold and what I will make of it.

I feel like some of the things I'm most proud of lately is that I'm really appreciating what I have in life, being grateful for what I have and expressing gratitude for it, appreciating the memories for the past and thanking those in my life for those yet accepting them as the past, and moving forward in my present and future. I am becoming a really respectful and appreciative woman and I know that some strong man (stress this part because I wish to find someone who is really emotionally strong and truly knows himself) out there, is going to get himself one heck of a catch someday when I choose to love again. Just feel like I'm learning so much.


I have those moments of pity and sadness when I feel alone or like I don't have a family, but I also feel great peace at times when I think about my future. I have faith that great things shall come and I know with all I have learned, I will then make and keep things great.