I was feeling a rather miffed at the lack of response to my last thread. However, I am not here to please a click, I am here to help myself and my marriage, and if all this is for me is an opportunity to journal so be it. It is disappointing to be sure, but I feel there may still be some value.
So we had a lovely vacation, very relaxed. I am doing my best to be supportive and not pushing, which in and of itself is a different person. I am impatient, but keeping it to myself, and trying not to dwell. Have been very busy with the house, getting this one ready to sell and making selections for the new one. I am keeping to my plan of hands off stuff that is or should be Jon's cup of tea, in fact I think I surprised him the other day and said something was totally his world and I had no opinion. He will continue to talk to me about some of the stuff, but I don't try and control where it is going or what is happening.
I am also asking him if he has an opinion on something rather than constantly talking about towel bars or some such thing, I ask if he cares, I might show him in the end but not the process. He feels I am an obsessive shopper, and I admit I do shop for things a lot, he is a buyer, he will shop when he is ready to buy.
Not doing very well focusing on myself, I think I need to call my centering friend and have her give me a kick in the pants, need to get my focus back on taking care of myself instead of worrying about something I have no control over, I do have control over myself. Hmmmm definitely something to ponder there.
Had a sucky couple weeks at work, also need to put that past me. I am bigger than that and need to focus on what I am there for, not the petty musings of a few small minded people.
Kids are doing great, although they miss H when he is gone, and he has been really busy between his dad and work the past few weeks. Patience again, weather the storm, persevere.
Me 41 H 42 DD 11 DS 8 M 18 bomb 8/3/06 separating 9/18/08
