I am pulling back--I don't plan on answering the phone if he calls. I don't have to worry about my son answering because he's hardly ever here! The only time it might be a problem is at work since I don't feel like telling everyone to tell him I'm not available. He rarely calls me there, but will probably try if he can't get a hold of me any other way. The good thing is that I only have to work Mon. and Tues. and then I'm off the rest of the week and next week.
If he shows any interest--and I have my doubts about this--I don't plan on doing much of anything. I'm so tired of the lies and his game playing that I don't even know if I care anymore. Sometimes I think you reach a point where you just give up and finally realize they are not the person you married and you just don't want them any more. Which is ironic since that realization usually leads them to make a serious effort, at least that's what I gather from reading other's posts.
I just have a really hard time with his treatment of our son. I just don't understand how he's able to live with himself when he doesn't talk to our son for a week and when he has a chance to spend time with him--he chooses to spend it with the OW (who he claims is just a friend--"we're not together as a couple, but we do things together"). Does he think I'm that stupid?
It's late. I need some sleep--the rollercoaster ride has made me very tired today. Thanks for your words of encouragement--I really appreciate them. All I can do is work on myself, so that's what I'm going to do. Have a good night.
