Character, Faith, and Patience IIII (I think!)

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I know I deserve this to some extent. Now, if she was being nasty like some guys' W's on here, I'd be second-guessing myself all over the place, but she's been rather decent, other than rarely talking to me.

Would it really make a big difference. We all probably deserve some of what is happening with our M at the moment. If some anger or being nasty at times came out, I think I would be like I am right now, somewhat deserving of all this.

But she's scared - scared to go back to what we had. All I can do is show her it won't be the same. It'll be WAY better, like we planned when we got married.

I think alot of our spouses are more scared of "what if", more than whether they love us or not. Not in all cases, but that is what I think with mine. She is afraid of what might happen instead of thinking what could happen with me not drinking.

So I keep working on me, and I pray she likes it as my family is the most important thing in the world to me.

I am learning that from you more than anyone, working on myself and my mental state. I also hope she likes the changes and wants to eventually keep the family together.