Another thing that's getting me down is the fact that things are starting to change for H - he's trying to rebuild his R with his dad and the restaurant is closing. Yet, I realize that these changes mean nothing for me. These changes are not an indication that he will come home or feel regret/remorse for what he's done. Even though I've given up, the changes give me false hope that he's waking up and will somehow undo all the wrongs.

Saw him tonight at dinner at in-laws. He had just come from a meeting with person who he owes a ton of money to. He seemed really down, which I took to be a good sign, thinking he was starting to realize things. He was pretty open and honest with me, but I still think he is delusional about a lot of what's going on in his situation. Guess he still hasn't hit rock bottom, and like HM and IMP have stated, even if he does, it still means nothing.


M: 33
MLC/WAH: 33
M 6 yrs, together 12
2 kids: 5,2
Bomb #1: 4/06 - "I don't love you anymore", almost S
Bomb #2: 7/06 - EA/PA since late 05, kicked H out/S
Bomb #3: 1/07 - "No longer have any feelings for you. It's over.", living w/OW, no talk of D