When does the hurt ever stop? I had meeting with lawyer Friday since I had not got to meet her in person yet. She just went over a few things with me. She wants to file for a separate maintenance agreement.

When I got home I asked D19 if she wanted to go get some lunch. She said she and other D16 had to go to Dad's shop. He was grilling burgers for his guys. She said I don't know why he wants us to come. She didn't fix up or anything, just put her hair in a ponytail and went. They were gone less than an hour. She said that there were lots of people there, including H's family. She thought it was going to be a small event. I think she was a little embarassed by her appearance.

H's cousin's D had wisdom teeth out Friday. I called to check on her. While I was talking to the wife. She told me that her H (cousin) told her that the OW/secretary and her D were there at the cookout. Cousin said my daughters did not look very comfortable and didn't stay long. I was mad and hurt that he is already trying to bring my daughters around her. My daughters didn't tell me she was there, I'm sure they didn't want to upset me. He has never had a cookout like this before. It's like he's trying to be Mr. Bigshot. My oldest D couldn't understand why I was letting this get to me. She thinks I should already be over all of this stuff. It hurts so bad not having family close by to talk to.




Life's challenges are not supposed to paralyze you, they're supposed to help you discover who you are.
-- Bernice Johnson Reagon