Well yesterday I was exhausted, dunno why. When H came home he was exhausted too and we went to bed early it was nice. The kids too.
Something good ( well sort of ) happened yesterday.... I was talking on the phone with hubby and he was being so sweet.
I said : "I miss you and I wanna .... " H: "You mean you miss when I am rude and I yell and so on and so forth ?"( In a playful voice) I reply: " NO, I do not miss that , I miss you. You big dork!"
" When you are not like that you are so beautiful honey. You can be such a beautiful person when you want to be. It is that part of you that is no good that needs to go." H: OK, OK.( in his palyful voice again)
I see a little progress.... baby steps....he normally does not joke around about his behavior.
........my H got home. I knew he was on his way and I was making him his favorite meal. Anyway he started to say " well honey you had half an hour I think that is enough time to make dinner..." BLAH, BLAH , BLAH.... I had a few words to say @ that. Thanks BND, He was like OK ok honey I get the point.
Then he started about something I havent mailed yet for my car. I TOLD HIM:
" You know what honey, you offend me. You make it sound like all I do is sit here and do nothing."
H: "What is it that you do ? You make it sound so damn hard."
I reply ( by this time I am angry)
AND I SAID IT IN SPANISH JUST TO MAKE SURE HE REALLY GOT IT.... I WAS ANGRY BUT MY VOICE WAS CALM.
" You are offending me, not once have I ever complained that I stay here nor have I said it was hard. But for you to sit there and pretend all I do is sit around and do nothing now that is just plain rude. I do not sit around doing nothing."
H: "come here sweetie."
I reply: " No , I am not kidding you need to take this seriously"
H: "OK, I am sorry."
I reply: " I am not going to sit by you and watch that Movie now cause then the kitchen wont get cleaned up and somehow I am supposed to spend time with you and have the kitchen clean itself."
I cleaned up and later went to sit down with him we had to do invoices together. He was pleasant.
I am doing better and he seems to realizing that I am not backing down this time.
I will keep doing this with love of course. Hopefully he will keep his eyes and heart open to allow himself to change and let go of old ways,. God bless...