The funny thing is I really didn't say anything to the cousin. SHE did most of the talking. I am glad I didn't slip and say anything about the affair. So anything that gets back to my W I don't have to deny. That is one road I don't want to travel. I don't what to have to lie about anything. I am not perfect but in this situation right now I am still the victim. I have not done one thing in retaliation. Believe me this is a 180 for me. AND if things do go south and a D happens I will 180 back and go public with everything (in both states)
As for the vicodin. I had an urge today again but if I keep busy I soon forget. I was only on 10 mg a day (sometime a little more) I do want to stay off of it. I feel less emotional (until I come here and read other peoples sitch that are not going so well).
Tomorrow will be a blast. I have to admit I have always been the main person in my son's life. But the last 4 weeks we have done more than ever.
In the future he will remember his mom as the one, who bought him video games, His dad taught him how to drive, fish mud bog, 4wheel,fly kites, build sand castles, pan for gold, metal detecting, Baseball football, basket ball, and just sit by a stream and eat lunch and talk about life. The weird thing is if it were not for my son I would have given up already. Not only has he given me a reason to try to save our family. He has been my friend and companion that I can talk to. (Not about my sitch) just talk.
Husband
And if I claim to be a wise man, well It surely means that I don't know
