you have said a lot of bad things about your husband. most of the worst things, are still pure guesswork on your part.
if you want to do a true 180; may I suggest first starting an internal "180". start thinking about the POSITIVE things about your husband. and dont believe negative stuff, until you see proof of it.
The second step, would be to stop throwing tantrums at him like you did yesterday.
My current status: june 2006. Wife ran out and filed D. Finalized Jan 11, 2010, after 12.5 years M. 3 wonderful sons caught in the middle
