I promise, no more angry texts! My H is very hard to get a hold of and now that I have a new cell, I feel a lot more control. I really want to do an internal 180, but it is difficult. The hardest part is not getting support from two important people, my H and my mom. They treat me like I am an enemy. Here are some of my goals: 1. Stop gossiping. 2. Listen more, speak less. 3. Only vent here anonymously. 4. Stop assumming. 5. Keep my kids' home, our home, bright and clean.
Me:38 H:39 MLC M:10 R:23 years D6 S3 Bomb: Easter, 2007 "Every day may not be good, but there's something good in every day."
I became very angry and stepped out of DBimng mode again. It feels like two steps forward three steps back. We were doing the family thing when my H yawned. I asked if he needed to get back home from the festivities to nap before work. he said he had the night off and he had last night off. Well he left his Daddy playtime early. So I should have left it there but I had to ask what he did to make him so sleepy then. he answered that he spent the night as his friends house and his friend has his kids for the summer. yes, two men who have been kicked out of their homes. So instead of being with his kids, he is with his friends' kids every night. That made me so angry.
Me:38 H:39 MLC M:10 R:23 years D6 S3 Bomb: Easter, 2007 "Every day may not be good, but there's something good in every day."
Great. The phone just rang. My mom is reporting that my H's aunt and coworker are being pestered by the OW which I did not know even existed. This is pretty awful and adds a whole new dimension to DBing.
Me:38 H:39 MLC M:10 R:23 years D6 S3 Bomb: Easter, 2007 "Every day may not be good, but there's something good in every day."
You can do it, just keep working on yourself. Don't let new wrinkles stop you doing from what you want.
Thank you! I am usually so positive. Why would people try to bring me down like that? It is like being set up for humiliation. If I take him back, I ma a fool. If I give up, some OW looks like she won my H? I do not even know if it is true but all the clues look pretty bad.
Me:38 H:39 MLC M:10 R:23 years D6 S3 Bomb: Easter, 2007 "Every day may not be good, but there's something good in every day."
Well stay positive. If you take him back, it is your business, your not a fool, you are doing what your heart desires. As for people bringing up crap, it is the same reason they watch endless hours of TV, they have no life so they live thru others.
M 41 W 33 S8 S17 Bomb 3/11/07 S 3/28/07 New beginning? 8/31/07
