Sorry Jazz..I have to learn how to post old threads. My first thread has..well..disappeared because it was old. I will see if I can dig it up and link it.
Without getting into all of the details of who did what over the marriage I will give you the very, very condensed version..
I had 4 affairs in my marriage, 3 sexual, 1 not.
Quite frankly, if he does not want me as his wife, which I would not blame him in the least, then file and move on.
But he will not file, it is like he keeps telling me that if I want him out of my life, then I have to file. If I don't, then I have to deal with the consequesnces of my actions, that he pretty much hates me, has the right to treat me however he feels, because I hurt him so bad. The problem I have is that I am allowing it at times.
I completly understand that I did. I know what I have done is horrible.
We separated a month ago, I thought that would give us some space that we both need. Him his "freedom" to do as he wishes, me some time to get things straight in my head and work on me.
Apparently, that was wrong too. I left him and all I needed to do was let him date and meet someone new, and be supportive and loving about it.
