Can't go back. Can't sit still. Guess you have no choice but to move forward.
I guess right now, don't let anybody try to make you feel like you are wrong. You believe in what you are doing. Not once did you say you were giving up on the M. You just wanted some time and space to get yourself better.
I have gained a lot of info from your sharing. It took courage to do what you are doing. And you said on with the plan. I would personally like to know what the plan is from here. What is your next step after moving? How often with a T? How often with communication from the H? Where do you see yourself in three months? Six months? What would you like to happen from here?