As for recent events since the wedding which was on June 9th.
- She told me she is putting herself under "house arrest". She is no longer going out and getting drunk and doing "stupid things."
- She has admitted to me about being depressed. She says that she has been depressed for a while now. However, when I suggest that she go talk to someone about it, she says that she doesn't have the time. When the times do come up, I continue to suggest she go and talk to someone.
- She has to get a physical to go to school for nursing. Since she doesn't have a family doctor here in town, she is starting as a new patient with a local doctor. The doctor sent her some forms to fill out prior to her coming in. One of these forms asked questions like, "Have you been depressed recently?", "Are you eating too little or too much?", "Trouble sleeping at night?", "Suicidal thoughts?", etc. I asked her to please fill out the form truthfully and she said she would. I am hoping this doctor sees these signs and suggests her to get further help.
- She makes comments about being depressed on a regular basis.
- She told me that months ago when she was going out to the bars a few times a week with co-workers that she wasn't having any fun. She said it was more of an act.
- There has been no mention of us having sex the night of the wedding. About a week after the wedding, I came home late and she was awake. We were on the couch and she playfully punched me. We started to wrestle a bit and I tried to kiss her and she turned away. I didn't pursue it any further.
- She was talking to me about how she is so overwhelmed with things going on in her life right now. I told her that she needs to slow things down and only she can do it. I told her that a few months ago I was very overwhelmed too with work and everything else. I told her that I realized that only I could slow my life down and I did. I told her how much more I am enjoying life again. Her response was, "Yeah, I have noticed how much more fun you are having now." THE 180s and GAL WORK!!!
- This past Monday, we had a company function at the ballpark. I went to the game and went out with friends after the game finished. I got home about 2:30 am and the GF was awake. I walked in the door and she immediately asked "And where have you been?" I responded with, "Does it really matter?" (Probably not the best response but I was feeling good from drinking.) She replied, "I was just joking."
She loves cotton candy, so I bought her some while at the game and gave it to her. She asked where I had gotten it from. I said, "Don't worry about it. I know you love cotton candy so I brought some home for you." She curiously replied back, "Did you go to a fair? Where did you get it from?" I just walked out of the room ignoring her and leaving her wondering.
- This past Thursday, I got home from work and she was home. We talked about our days for a bit. She wanted me to help her with something later that evening. I told her I couldn't because I had to be somewhere at 7:30. She kiddingly responded, "Oh, do you have a date?" I put a grin on and said, "I didn't say that, I just said I have to be somewhere at 7:30."
Shortly after that, her entire attitude changed. She got a lot more quite and seemed a bit down. While I was getting ready to go out, she quietly asked me what time I would be home. I told her I wasn't sure and asked why. She said that she was just wondering.
Right before I left, she told me that she might buy a bottle of wine and invite a girlfriend of hers over. She said that she might want someone to talk and cry to or if I wasn't going to be out late she would just wait for me to come home and talk to me.
I responded with, "I am sorry. I didn't know you wanted to talk." She told me that she didn't really have anything to talk about now but just might want to talk later. I told her that I would probably be home by 11 if she wanted to talk then. I did get home around 11 and no talking took place.
