I have so much to post and right now I cant ,, but I will say I was crying and praying and crying and praying some more last nite while H was in our backyard talking to his crew.
I dunno I was just feeling so overwhelmed by my emotions.
I was praying that I need for God to help him as to help me have strength thru this,,,
as I think giving up would seem easier.
Anyway weirdest thing ever happened,, he came up to bed kissed me and wanted to talk.
He honestly has never done this,,,, and we have "talked" so much lately, I am suprised he is NOT talked out.
It was awesome,, he wanted to know what I thought of him and his plans for us , what the kids think of him etc etc.
I did mention that D8 told me just yesterday she does not like when Daddy yells at me , he says he loves you MOMMY but he does not act like it when he speaks to you that way. ( her exact words)
( Smart little girl huh?)
I told him that the kids adore him but that especially D8 loves him so and that she does not take things on face value she analizes a lot of what you do whether you think she is watching or not.
Will post more later.... I just needed to let this out.
I wonder why he wanted to talk, is he really thinking about how he acts ?
