I don't know if it is the continuous roller coaster ride or what b/c H was and had been very calm and quiet (other than my turning him down quite a few times sexually),but last nite he says the only way he forsees himself getting out of debt is by buying me out of my part of the deed by refinancing. We aren't even D yet. He has not filed!! Why does he want this and not the D? I said so your throwing us out? No he said I would get sufficient $ to start over w/ a new place. I think he is stressing b/c his OW is putting the $ pressure on him to help out and he can not afford to. He said he told her if she can't handle it then he would have to leave & so she hasn't said anything more about it. He says he does not pay any bills over there,but that was a lie b/c he accdentally left his check book I saw last month where he paid her cable bill. I think that was probably his idea b/c she sounds to busy w/ law school to watch any tv. As he tells me she is always on the computer doing homework. The way he was telling is almost like he feels "unattented to just like when he was here (poor me),but Ow has A GOOD REASON -SCHOOL & I had none(3kids -hello) to not give him any attention.My H would pay for his tube addiction.
So there I was not beign able to sleep thinking will I soon have to really leave the house I so love?? H was upset all around last nite b/c we had a misunderstanding about him wanting to take the girls out last nite. H claims he told me about it & I said no you must said you would be by twice this week and did not say when. So I was kidless when he got home and even though we sat and I heard him go on about work and $ stressors, he was still very upset at me. Sid he will not see them this weekend or the next(his fault daytona race comes first)! So he wants to take them overnite Tuesday the 3rd and have them all day the fourth & return them in time for me take them for the fireworks. On a sarcastic reply from me to yet another stupid "did your BF give you that" remark, I just agree to anything sarcastically & on that note was I guess his last straw and rushed off to leave. He said I can't stand your sarcasm, well I am tired of your stupid BF remarks! I did not say that but WTH! I am sure his OW has moved already and he IS staying there. Still he claims he does not know if he will live there or w/his dad OR come back to our house! LIES, lIES. ALready has plans for the fourth to spend it at OW apt pool. WHenenever he suspects "my BF" he gets really mean and starts to scare me about the house and stuff. As he was rushing off after the last BF remark I was trying to beat him out the door as I did not want him to see how hurt I felt b/c I was feeling really close to him while we were actaully communicating for almost an hour until mr bipolar did a switcharoo on me!
As I was leaving and getting in my car, yet another comment- yeah go ahead go see him I know you gotta go! UGH!
I did something so unlike me! I NEVER invite him out so I said no I want to get me something to eat do you want to come? WHY????I knew he was upset so y did I do that knowing his response- no I am going to my dad's. WHatever!
