Well, I had an answer to prayer today. I always call H during the afternoon here to wake him up as it is a.m. over there. This is something he asked me to do and has continued to ask me to do. Well, so I called and of course he's just waking up and the conv isn't all that great b/c of that, but when I got off the phone, I just felt that scared feeling inside. I'm sure you all know what I'm talking about. That scared feeling that I'm going to lose him again or he's lying about something or he's cheating again or any other number of things.

Well, when I got off the phone, I just prayed about it. I said Lord, I just can't live like this. I can't go on being constantly scared that I'm going to lose him again or that something is constantly wrong. I can't do it now and I certainly don't want to still be doing it when he gets back.

Well, a few minutes later, H actually called me back! He never does this as usually he is just getting ready for work or whatever. Anyway I was at work, but I answered the phone and he said "Hey Hottie." He said I really only get to talk to you 2 times a day and one of those is when I'm half asleep. Anyway, we went on to have a good conv, him telling me what's going on over there for his weekend, as it is already Friday for him.

Anyway, I said "thank you, Lord!" I needed that. \:\) I've decided that it's in His hands, just like when we were going through the D sitch. I am just going to trust that H and I are meant to be together, of that I have no doubt and never did doubt it, and just know that all is going to be ok.

Me: 38
H: 35
S4, S5, S10
Bomb 01/07
Wanted D - nothing would change his mind
Numerous A's prior to D bomb; EA prior/during D bomb
Piecing 04/07
Deployed for a year 05/07
Still Piecing 2010
M 11 yrs 05/10