I have worked hard not to hurt my friend. I have tried to be as honest as possible about where I am and what I have to give at this point.
As for my W - I don't know the answer to why she does what she does. We went to mediation again today and she was full of anger again. Reminded me what a shi--y husband I was, but followed that up with what a great dad I always was and that I'm now an even better dad and person.
