you can be more than sure that all of this will be in my control. I am not going through this crap again. When he came home before we had had many months of talking etc.. then we went on a trip and BAM he was home,I was not prepared but too scared to say anything b/c i didn't want him to run off back to ow or whatever. This time is different. I didn't mind dinner with him- It shows him how I am and how strong I can be. He is the father of my children so I want him to get help- He is going to try to repair R's with his parents but his mother is truly a fruit cake(trust me on this) and his father was a raging alcoholic he has since gotten help for that but still is not so much a family man with his older kids the only one he spends time with is his 19 y/o that he has with my H's stepmom.
Trust me I am no idiot when it comes to this I may have lost my head a few times but I have got it together much better now. IF this marriage is to be saved then it is a long road ahead and he knows that. I doubt his sincerity a little , I think he loves us and missing his family but is looking for a quick fix I.E. us getting back together like yesterday- NOT GOING TO HAPPEN- The work comes first.
I am taking it slow
To those who checked out myspace thanks for the compliments on my babies, I think they are beautiful too.
Love,lisa
Me:37 H:38 6 kids first bomb 8/05 (ow involved) piecing 7/06 second bomb 3/07 ow involved wash rinse repeat.... huge move to start over 2/11 more affairs H left for good 8/12
