I'm sure people think I'm crazy for continuing trying to save my marriage. Especially since it's been so long and that he had an affair. I remember thinking "If my DH ever had an affair, I'd be out the door." Ha!! ALL I could think about was saving my marriage!!!
On the IM thing. We're on Yahoo. I'm his only contact. Michelle talks about reading the signs or whatever. At first, he wouldn't log on. So when he does, I *know* he's doing it for me. Actually, we've talked to C about it and at first he HATED that I used it to "reach out and touch him". Because honestly, if even we don't talk on IM (and I RARELY initiate any contact now), it IS a comfort seeing him there.
You know, I look at DH and still get butterflies. We usually go out on the lake each weekend and watching him on the wake board... well, he just looks so good... LOL!!!
I can't believe we're here. It just doesn't make sense. We were the couple that people wanted to be. Since this has happened, one of his best friends who used to use our marriage as an example of what he wants has now said he will never get married.
I wish DH would come to his senses... LOL!! I equate it to cartoons with the anvils being dropped on their heads. If only I could drop it on his head to bring him back.
Here's a Keith Urban song that is *almost* perfect.
You said you needed your space I wasn't where you wanted to be I didn't stand in your way I only want you to be happy And so surprised am I to see you here tonight
Well, can't you see that for worse or for better We're better together Please, just come back home And don't say that you're sorry And I won't say I told you so
Sometimes in our lives We get to where we wonder if The long road that we're on Is heading in the same direction When it comes to you and me We're right where I know we should be
Oh, can't you see that for worse or for better We're better together Please, just come back home And don't say that you're sorry And I won't say I told you so
Sometimes it's like we're deep in nothing but love And the slightest thing can grow so foolishly Please
Oh, can't you see that for worse or for better We're better together Please, just come back home And don't say that you're sorry And I won't say I told you so But I told you so Should have known better Than to leave me, baby Should have known better Than to leave me, darling