I'm sure people think I'm crazy for continuing trying to save my marriage. Especially since it's been so long and that he had an affair. I remember thinking "If my DH ever had an affair, I'd be out the door." Ha!! ALL I could think about was saving my marriage!!!

On the IM thing. We're on Yahoo. I'm his only contact. Michelle talks about reading the signs or whatever. At first, he wouldn't log on. So when he does, I *know* he's doing it for me. Actually, we've talked to C about it and at first he HATED that I used it to "reach out and touch him". Because honestly, if even we don't talk on IM (and I RARELY initiate any contact now), it IS a comfort seeing him there.

You know, I look at DH and still get butterflies. We usually go out on the lake each weekend and watching him on the wake board... well, he just looks so good... LOL!!!

I can't believe we're here. It just doesn't make sense. We were the couple that people wanted to be. Since this has happened, one of his best friends who used to use our marriage as an example of what he wants has now said he will never get married.

I wish DH would come to his senses... LOL!! I equate it to cartoons with the anvils being dropped on their heads. If only I could drop it on his head to bring him back. ;\)

Here's a Keith Urban song that is *almost* perfect.

You said you needed your space
I wasn't where you wanted to be
I didn't stand in your way
I only want you to be happy

And so surprised am I to see you here tonight

Well, can't you see that for worse or for better
We're better together
Please, just come back home
And don't say that you're sorry
And I won't say I told you so


Sometimes in our lives
We get to where we wonder if
The long road that we're on
Is heading in the same direction
When it comes to you and me
We're right where I know we should be

Oh, can't you see that for worse or for better
We're better together
Please, just come back home
And don't say that you're sorry
And I won't say I told you so

Sometimes it's like we're deep in nothing but love
And the slightest thing can grow so foolishly
Please

Oh, can't you see that for worse or for better
We're better together
Please, just come back home
And don't say that you're sorry
And I won't say I told you so
But I told you so
Should have known better
Than to leave me, baby
Should have known better
Than to leave me, darling