789..not here. Sadly the alleys that are open that late are inside Indian Gaming Casinos and go 24hrs a day..same rate.
That's part of my problem KS is lack of friends. I have one that is focusing all his time to his homelife and new career. He had a child because of a PA with another woman, came clean with his wife and is rebuilding. Good for them. But it doesn't afford him much social time.
My next closest friend is 100miles away. Except of course for my wife..
Yes there has to be more to do, I just can't seem to find a path to get there.
H-36 W-38 Married 14yrs Together 17 2 Children (D12, S15) 9/20/05 - Seperated 4/23/07 - Dbomb dropped 4/25/07 - I Love you, not in love "If it's not hard, it's not worth fighting for."
So you need to get out there and MEET new friends. People you work with? Grab a bite to eat one night after work? Start a group of people - and go DO something for yourselves.
....Understand, that I can't, not be what I am I'm not the milk, and Cheerios in your spoon ~ Avril Lavigne ~ ..."Nobody's Fool"...
Again finances KS. I have 40 bucks to last me a week and 1/2. I can't afford to go out and eat just to go.
I work in a call center, 95% of which are females under the age of 25 that all dream of being the next Paris Hilton.
Not exactly my speed of people.
H-36 W-38 Married 14yrs Together 17 2 Children (D12, S15) 9/20/05 - Seperated 4/23/07 - Dbomb dropped 4/25/07 - I Love you, not in love "If it's not hard, it's not worth fighting for."
A lot of it goes back to my self-esteem. Remember when I said if it wasn't for the web I wouldn't even talk to you? I have to fix the inward before I can think about going outward.
H-36 W-38 Married 14yrs Together 17 2 Children (D12, S15) 9/20/05 - Seperated 4/23/07 - Dbomb dropped 4/25/07 - I Love you, not in love "If it's not hard, it's not worth fighting for."
Yes you do. You can start by deciding that you ARE worth more than you think.
You know what changed me some? Going to the counselor. She told me I am a child of God......and I deserve to be treated like I am. I had put myself down for so long, partly because of my past (or history with my parents, etc.) and partly because of what I did - I felt like I didn't deserve better than what I was getting because I am a bad person.
Now - I still feel horrid about what I did, shame, regret, an overall feeling of ickiness if I am asked to recall it - but I've been forgiven, the price has been paid and God still loves me.........
....Understand, that I can't, not be what I am I'm not the milk, and Cheerios in your spoon ~ Avril Lavigne ~ ..."Nobody's Fool"...
I am in counseling. Sadly with everything else going on with the sitch, having to move, etc. That's what we end up talking about.
H-36 W-38 Married 14yrs Together 17 2 Children (D12, S15) 9/20/05 - Seperated 4/23/07 - Dbomb dropped 4/25/07 - I Love you, not in love "If it's not hard, it's not worth fighting for."
A lot of it goes back to my self-esteem. Remember when I said if it wasn't for the web I wouldn't even talk to you? I have to fix the inward before I can think about going outward.
Signing you up for next seasons American Idol.
M 41 W 33 S8 S17 Bomb 3/11/07 S 3/28/07 New beginning? 8/31/07
What I'm good at is..well..I dunno anymore. Computers but that doesn't help me get OUT.
That's why the horse thing was so great. See I grew up with horses all my life. I used to rodeo from about age 14 up. I stopped doing horses when my partner (my horse) passed away when I was 18. I met my wife about two years later. So this was a thing we did together every week, building toward her dream of having horses of her own. Me having some knowledge in the area.
Someday I dreamed of us boarding enough horses to actually make money off the deal. Labor of love for her dream if you will.
I've searched for local support groups in the area and sadly they are all "dating" related. Divorced singles for love and such. Single parents support. None that fit into a DB type mentality. They actually sound counter-productive.
H-36 W-38 Married 14yrs Together 17 2 Children (D12, S15) 9/20/05 - Seperated 4/23/07 - Dbomb dropped 4/25/07 - I Love you, not in love "If it's not hard, it's not worth fighting for."
