Thanks COG~

I feel like I am on the right track too but it does seem so unatural to me. I am so used to being SWEET. I still want to be me just stronger.....
He also said the other day re: his temper.

See honey , I am like that with everyone not just you ( SEE I DO HAVE HIM THINKING ABOUT HIS TEMPER ;\) ) after he talked to one of his crew members.

I normally would stay quiet.

I said " You know what honey yelling at your employee and me are 2 very different things. I AM YOUR WIFE and THE MOTHER OF YOUR CHILDREN , do not compare me to them, you have tried to say this before. Do not compare me to them, there is no COMPARISON, they work for you, I do not ...... And I DESERVE SO, SO MUCH MORE.

H~ silence.


Maybe what I heard him say ((when he said help me be a better Man was,,,)))
help me to not be an ass anymore by you being awesome and not taking [censored] anymore and loving me at the same time.
HMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM, cause I still love him so but I am afraid that now that this part of me has been opened and there is no turning back. No I cant change him but I can choose not to take [censored] anymore. and yes BND, I have been trying hard for far too long.... and I am far too amazing to be a doormat....

You all are the best thank you for your input. It helps me to keep fighting the good fight.
LOVE, Ali