Thank you for the advice BeingMe--I fully intend to find joy in each new day (maybe I'll try to consciously look for it hourly! ). For all the work, I am enjoying my little kids. I know they'll be grown in the blink of an eye, and I don't want to miss a thing.
I'm working my way through a new book, and in this morning's reading, I came across this list, comparing the ways of being self-centered versus centered on others:
Charactaristics of a person who is centered on self: worried about self scarcity-minded resentful of others' success insecure sees others as rivals controlling manipulative concerned with quantity selfish lonely reactive guarded anxious suspicious fearful rigid self-centered defensive
Charactaristics of a person who is centered on others: interested in others abundance-minded delights in others' success secure, peaceful sees others as friends trusting sincere concerned with quality sharing supportive solicitous open assured serene flexible other-centered accommodating
It is really making me think about my true down-deep motives in my interactions with everyone. Certainly it is easy to say I want to be more like the second person's description. But truthfully, so many of the fears I experience in relation to my sitch fall under the description of the first.
I am looking forward to learning how to open myself, to be truly compassionate of everyone with whom I have contact, to live a life of real abundance and joy. To lose the insecurities and self-worries and truly love and be loved.
). For all the work, I am enjoying my little kids. I know they'll be grown in the blink of an eye, and I don't want to miss a thing.