I had this bad feeling last night when H brought the girls home. I don't know why but all of a sudden I felt like I needed to know where he was headed. For some reason I felt he was going over to his female friends house. So, what do I do? The kids and I go snooping. (I know, I shouldn't do that)
Got to town and went past her place......his truck wasn't there. I am starting to feel a little better. We went by his place and there his truck sat. I was a fool. I did feel better after looking. I know I shouldn't do that but I also knew I wouldn't sleep until I knew.
Let me let you all in on a little secret....it isn't the first time I have done that. I have to say only 1 out of 20 times his truck has been at her place. Usually it is before a tournament or something where they have to set up the schedules. He has told me it is all about volleyball so why can't I accept that? I have already accepted the fact nothing is going on between them. I guess checking up every now and again gives me the reassurance I need.
I know they go out and eat after practice. They leave practice around 8:45 and he is home by 9:30. That is going to eat and taking her home (they ride together cuz it makes it easier. I am fine with this). Also in this time, he calls the girls to tell them good night.
What I really need to do is stop snooping and trust him. That is my goal. Honestly, I don't do it all the time.
Now, back to the positive stuff. Everything is going to work out. H will be home when he finishes all this "freedom" stuff. H cares about me. I know this. Ok, I feel so much better now. Time to go take my meds so I can have a wonderful day.
I am starting to feel a little better. We went by his place and there his truck sat. 
I did feel better after looking. I know I shouldn't do that but I also knew I wouldn't sleep until I knew. 
