My head is clearing. It’s pretty amazing how you can be living your life “high” and not even know it. It’s kind of scary thinking about all of the decisions I have made in the last 2 years with my head in the clouds.
Day 4 doing well. Less temptations coming into my head. I now regret asking My W out Saturday night. I can see it was my emotional side trying to hurry things up a little to fast. I have always heard that saying: if you love something let it go, if it comes back its you’re’s if it does not it never was.” Now I know what that guy was talking about. There will be NO R or M or OM or future or feelings talk and dinner unless SHE brings it up. And then I will just smile and shake my head. Theo
Thanks for your “date” conversation suggestions. I will use those at lunch today. The female coworker / W cousin I am going out with knows something is not right between my W and I but I am not ready to discus anything with her yet. Soooo your inputs will make lunch go smoother. It’s is strange I am soooo nervous about this lunch. I almost feel like I was backing high school on a first date.
Matilda2
Filling up 3 pages happens when you create your own roller coaster ride. I have been perusing and detaching at the same time. Like the push me pull you on Doctor Doolittle. Ya go nowhere. I used to think “I am not driving this car I’m just along for the ride” well I got out of her car and jumped in my own. Let’s see where it takes me.
Cades
September is around the corner July is gone! I’m getting excited for you. Can’t wait to hear how things go. Will you be able to log in where your H is? Where is your H anyway?
Delia
Vicodin is what I have been on. When you first take it that day you get a little rush and then you think you are normal but it is really like being a little drunk. Not swerve all over the road drunk but the “on man why did I say that” kind of drunk. Thinking back this morning on some of the things I have said and done in the last 2 months is scary. I drove over 600 miles with my son in my jeep with my head in the clouds. OMG.
Saffie-
HOW ARE YOU DOING? I don’t know how to thank you. I wish I could give ya a great big hug. Feel good about yourself. You came here looking for help and ended up helping me. This emotional side is my “Pisces” side not the Drugs. It seems so weird using the word drugs and talking about me in the same sentence. I think of drug addicts as people living out in the street and dirty and scummy. I hope things are going good in your sitch.
Husband
And if I claim to be a wise man, well It surely means that I don't know
