Trying - NOP is dead-on - DON'T have an A - you will be so, so sorry you did it. Trust me, it will totally make things worse than they already are. I know you feel entitled to it, we all have felt that way at one time or another but two wrongs definitely don't make a right.

Your H driving by could indicate he is feeling vulnerable right now too, perhaps he thinks he is the one being ignored. It is a very good time to sit down and really let him know how you feel (leaving out the desire to have an A part)

My guess is you are BOTH suffering from depression to a point. Have there been any traumas in your life recently? Moves, job changes, dead of loved ones - those things and others can really set someone back.

If you can get into counselling and he is willing to go with you, all the better. There is hope, hang tough

Heywyre

M - 57
H - 65
1st A-bomb - Nov 27/02
2nd A-bomb - Dec 13/06
together 21 years
***************************
Insanity is doing something over and over and expecting different results (Albert Einstein)