Thanks Nop. I know I am at a low. Because your post made me cry. I am really struggling. I do feel my entitlement growing. Because I say things to myself like well maybe if he is looking elsewhere I should to. Or I am entitled to do what he was thinking of doing. He has ignored me for so long I am entitled, who would blame me if they knew how ignored I am. Last week I took my ring off because the flirting felt good.
I hear how bad Choc is feeling right now. But I admire him so much for taking the stand he has. Deep in my heart I don't think my husband would care. He wouldn't take that kind of stand with me and that scares me so much. But maybe I am wrong. He isn't one that shows jealousy at all. But the other day he made a comment to me that I thought was odd for him. I had to work late for 2 days in a row. The second day he said where did you park, I was going to come in and see you? I told him I parked towards the back that day. I wasn't where I normally parked. But I thought it was odd that he drove by. Because it was out of his way. He also made a comment that it bothered him some that I have a male friend. (only a friend) But he said I would never say you couldn't see him because then you would say I controlled you or throw it in my face.
