H kinda came outta the dark, but he's gone again

[mkultra]

Tell me about it! My H cannot confirm or deny if there is OW, so sometimes I obsess over the stupidest triggers! Today his car was covered in bird crap and since there are no trees over our driveway I assumed there must be a tree at the OW driveway! How dumb is that? I picture him with an OW and I do not even know if one exists. I do not even think I can deal with the Infidelity space, I like it better here in limbo. There is at least a glimmer of hope, but things are falling apart all over the place. Are you comfortable with the emails? Would you prefer making eye contact or hearing him on the phone?