Journaling here, not so much about what is happenening but how I am feeling.
Over the last while I have seriously started to think about life without my W , I know now thanks to DB'ing I can be happy regardless of what she decides to do. Life without her right now actualy has something going for it. This act of detaching properly has finaly sunk in and realy not worrying about your spouse or what they are up to does your PMA the world of good. Sure there are reminders of times gone but I try and see them for what they are , good memories that I am thankful to have.
But mostly this is something that was going to happen given our prevoius R at some stage. It has been a life experience that will make my life better no matter what the outcome.
I still want a happy family with my W but do not need that to be a happy person. If W is ever able to commit to the work required to rebuild our R then I will still ( for now) be ready to take that journey with her. I do love her , always will .
