I'm going no where fast. All my leads for jobs are dead ends at this point. I really need to find a new job to decide where to look for a new house. I need a new house to get real figures for what to ask for in our settlement. Saw H for about 10 minutes today. He said not to worry about the house, but to hurry and get the financial proposal back to him. I explained that I didn't want to ask for more than I needed, but didn't have good figures at this point since all our money and expenses are still merged.

He wonders why I don't just agree to his proposal since it's a 50-50 split of our current assets and he's "willing" to take on the debt of the house and boat. He just didn't take into consideration his retirement(I've been told I should get half). Also, I'm a bit insulted with his "offer" of alimony: about half the boat payment and for only two years (this for a 30 year marriage!).

I'll just ask for the moon now!

Matilda