I'm not aware of the details of your current concerns, but wanted to ask if you're aware of or if you've had a chance to read the book "Bonds that Make Us Free"?
I started it nearly a year ago and got lost in my crisis, but picked it up yesterday and am finding some very deep concepts about how anxious feelings are often linked to conflicts within ourselves...most often without our even realizing it.
Anyway, don't know if I'm on topic or not, but wanted to throw it out there for ya. I hope things shake loose for you.
