Why do these things happen V

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Not sure of that, but she is right. I do fixate on her and us. I am really thinking that is what is stopping anything from really moving forward. So with this time where I will have no choice but not to see her, it may give me time to settle my mind down and not be thinking about it. It is going to be hard, but I have too. While she is gone she will be 300+ miles away and when she gets back I will be about 500+ miles away, now that is a distance. I have been good the last 3 days, I have not called once, all contact has been her calling.