I didn't have any either when H left. You need to build this up. Go out and have a good time. You will be able to get the self esteem back.
Goes deeper. I didn't have any when she found me in the first place. I never have had any in my life...ever. Goes back to childhood issues.
H-36 W-38 Married 14yrs Together 17 2 Children (D12, S15) 9/20/05 - Seperated 4/23/07 - Dbomb dropped 4/25/07 - I Love you, not in love "If it's not hard, it's not worth fighting for."