Ok so you are still trying to save your M. You want that if he can pull his head out of his butt. If that is the case your needs wll unfortunatley have to stay on the back burner. So don't even think about that. Of if you need them met, meet then in a new way. I require physical touch. I crave it. W won't give it to me so I hug the kids a ton, etc. Replace what he won't give you somehow. It may not be a 100% match...but it should help.
If you are leaving it into God's hands to save your M, that is all well and good...just make sure to take advantage of the skills and opportunities that He provides to you.
This will take work from YOU, God won't just magically fix it all. And it does seem like you are doing good and trying to change. I say continue to focus on yourself, take a good look at what you did wrong, decide what you don't like about yourself and go about changing those things.
I guess I look at this as God has given you a wake up call. He has given you an opportunity to change your life for the better. Take it. If you H can, then he will come back and hopefully he can change as well and then your M can be a healthy one. But it will not be easy and it will take a long time. If does not happen...well guess what? You still win because you have taken His opporutnity.
