I am not financially stable to get a place of my own. H is confused and I think the longer he stays in that state my feelings seem to die littlle by little. Sometimes I want this to hurry up end one way or the other. He says the Ow now knows I signed the D papers but he at first did not want her to know for not wanting to give her false hopes.
I guess like everyone else I am playing the waiting time will tell game?
I beleive in waiting for my sweet Lord's time. I jsut leave it all to HIM. I had asked God to put or keep my love alive for H if indeed HE wants us to stay together.
My goal is for H to come back & us to have a new & better M, hence the 180's like avoiding arguments and not reacting when H trys to push my buttons & learning new recipes (h liked that),etc. Not interrupting when he tells me about his day and listening to his wants or complaints.
