Stillme's Chapters Continue Some More

[stillme]

Donna, not sure what the "all mushy" reference was to. I haven't had any "mush" for so long I've forgotten what it looks/sounds like. Also, the "politeness" reference? If you mean MY politeness, well H has had obviously no appreciation for that as it only served to escalate H's teeth grinding & disrespect for me.

So, still going w/the Cold & Done (or, as I like to think of it: Setting The Stage). H didn't call yest (for the kids) at all. This morn. he calls while D & I were still snuggling in my bed (must've been 8am or so). D ran to get it & got back into bed w/me - as she talked I could hear H's side as well. Not that they mean alot, but there were def. 2 times H seemed to be "digging" for info. "You went to the movies? Was it just you & A & mommy?" & "You have a new friend? Where did you meet her?"

H (again) obviously said some version of "No, thanks" when D asked her usualy "Do you want to talk to mommy now?"; then he talked to S. About 10 min. later he calls back. (Turns out he was at the airport term., so MAYBE he "had to" end the first call early? The 2nd call was when he was having b'fast & had more time (to kill, to want to talk to someone who cared?) - So, D answered the phone again & they talked again. I was up & around by then, but soon S comes to me w/the phone held out. "Daddy wants to talk to you." I let a little dead-air build (stroking S's hair) to stall, then took the phone & said "Yes?"
H: "I'm going to p/u the kids when I get back."
Me: [dead-air]
H: "I'm driving there straight from the airport."
Me: "Is there a time frame we're talking about, or do I not get to know that?"
H: (snippy) "Yes. You get to know. It'll be around lunchtime."
Me: Okay. Is that all?
H: No. That's not all. Just wait & I'll look at my ticket. . . Okay. My flight gets in at X, so I'll be at the house btwn X & Y."
Me: Fine.
H: I need S to have his jj stuff ready to go.
Me: Is that all?
H: Yes! Bye.
Me: [click]

Yest. I took the family photo off the 'fridge that's been there since Jan.6th (day after DBing began, when I started acting As If & asked H if he would like to join me & 2 kids at Pirates Dinner Adventure [2 free tix given to us by friend]. He twisted his day around & we all went, had a very fun (like Normal!) time & H, for the first time ever!, bought the photo-pkg when offered. (Actually, we both answered "yes" at the same time when the pirate came around selling it.) I had been chosen as part of a relay team (throwing booty-beanbags up to the pirate in the crow's nest &, b/c of my, um, lack in the Height Dept. &, lol, b/c I was laughing too much to do it well, ended up beaning a poor woman in the head w/it instead. My eyes automatically sought out H's & he was LOLing along & reaching out to High-5 me. THAT's what I remember when I look at that photo. -- And that's the only family photo we had up (All the others of our wedding/dating went into the bathroom trash on Bomb-Day & stayed there for a good week b/f I put all the trash out.) -- So, now that photo's gone.

I also have the dining room table covered w/piles of the photos I have not scrapbooked for - literally - the past year. There are photos of the July trip (when H admitted to deciding on the D), plus the '06 F'Day Wkend in Miami (Yeah, happy smiley faces all around!), plus holidays, b'day parties, the Pirates pics, family-times (during DBing Friendly Roommates times) & then me&kids times. . . I've started making my way thru the piles & will make honest pages documenting the family. Moving on.

H will no doubt want to keep the kids not only tonight (a scheduled) but - b/c he missed first Mon., then Tues (as his travel got extended day to day) - tomorrow night as well. Then he's to have them Fri-thru-Tues morning. Don't know if I'll make that an issue - yet. But will prolly 'let' him have Thurs. night b/c I was going out with The Girls anyway.

Fri I have Night Out plans as well. Gonna step up the evenings out (even if they ARE evenings spent at a friend's, or at the bookstore) b/c, as usual, H will no doubt be stopping by all thru the wkend for whatever reason. Friend A wants me to fly to Bahamas over 4th of July (in HER friend's 4-seater, to stay at his fam's beachhouse), but I can't b/c I'll have the kids back by then. But would'a been nice, huh? Gonna start planning the get-aways to the friends that have been inviting me (Daytona, def., but unless flights are stupid-cheap I don't see how I can fly to Houston for a wkend - yet).

Gonna line up some non-dates going to the places I've always wanted to go (w/H) -- that Brunch rest., Cirque de Soleil, local & traveling B'way theatre, etc. I think I got too lax in that part of the GALing. IF it gets back to H, he'll see that I'm not waiting around for him any more. IF it gets back that I went w/a 'non-female', hmmmm... H has seen that I've been GALing but saw/heard thru kids that most (if not all) was done around Pilates/gym, kids, or w/girlfriends who he 'knows' & prolly feels/thinks wouldn't do anything 'wrong' - plus the fact that I've obviously been "waiting for him to change his mind", well, why should he be threatened? Time to shake that up a bit.

So - Plan in effect. Time to get my Game Face (&, uh, outfit) on. Will be ready to leave when H comes by in a few hrs for the kids. NO talk; distracted; no opp for him to (lol, as IF!) talk about his trip, his job, his boat or whatever else he sometimes brings up when the mood to "be nice" strikes. I've got Other Things to do.

Ta!