It's definitely very strained. My communications with the wayward Mrs. Choc. have been perfunctory, at best, lately, as we work out necessary logistics for the kids' day and such. Even on mundane, everyday "light" convos, I've noticed that she will sit in silence and NEVER INITIATE A SINGLE ONE, only responding with short answers if I initiate one. This makes me very sad, to not even have her say things in the car like "Oh look, there's a new shopping center going in," or "Did you see what that car just did?" or even something about ther weather. I mean she initiates NOTHING, and just sits there, nervously fidgeting, clutching her cellphone, putting it in her purse, taking it back out, putting lotion on her hands and such. She's a nervous wreck.
And when we have had the few R convos, they are ugly, although I've done a pretty good job at remaining calm. She REFUSED to talk about the affair, or allow others to, and to have it be part of the conversation about possibly ending our marriage. She is in total denial, and total addiction mode.
It's sad, and hurtful, but I am remarkably doing OK, with the help of NOP, all of you, my God and my family.
