I am not looking at her stopping the C as a bad thing. The fact that she is still here and not seeing the C means she has made some kind of decision. I AM NOT going to get my hopes up but.....Things went really good last night. When she got back form her mom's she was watching TV and I went in to say good night and she wanted to tell me a story about something that happened at work today. This alone is progress. 2 months ago she MAY have just looked over at me and said good night but most likely would not have taken her eyes off the T.V. I know we are not there yet. I don't want to push to hard yet. I text messaged. Her this morning. (She will not see it until she leaves for work). About going out Saturday for a little piazza and dancing. I think this will be a turning point. If she says yes I know we are headed in the right dirction. And if we do go out I am not going to talk any R. Just build on our friendship and have a good time. If she says no. then I know we are still in the "I still don't know what I want" phase. What I do know is we are not getting farther away at this point. We are not together but we are not separating. This is a good thing. I am on day 3 without the painkillers and I am doing fine. I think this is going to help me also because I tended to take things more personal when my brain was numbed from the drug. I am still GAL. If she says no to Sat. I will go out Fri by myself. I am still going on my lunch “date” Thursday. Looking back at this time I think it was a good thing that I did not go postal and kept the lid in the A. I didn't go to the family. I think that would have forced her to make a rash decision. Yes this was harder on me but because of everybody here I still had support. It's not over yet. I'll post again after I receive her answer to Saturday night
Take care and stay strong.
Husband
And if I claim to be a wise man, well It surely means that I don't know
