Thats pretty good, but how come you could not get that Depeche Mode song about a month ago?
NDDT,
Been reading your thread and can tell you that Swashy's advice is right on the money. He is an intelligent and intuitive guy.
I have been Ded for almost 1.5 years now and asked/did pretty much all the same things you are or have done. All the feelings and emotions you have gone through and will go through, I have seen.
My advice to you, and all the others, is to move forward with YOUR life. Stop thinking and asking about what will he/she do or think if I do x, y , or z. Like the NIKE commercial says "just do it". Get used to thinking and doing for yourself. Actins "as if" is all well and good, but for it to work it must become second nature. Same goes for going dark and whatever else the DB/DR books espouse. Learn to "stop missing" your XW and if things dont work out I can tell you life will get better. I never thought I would be where I am today, but I am here and every day my life gets a little better.
Bottom line is only, and this is a rough guess, only 10% of us will get together with out XW or XH. I am not one of that small minority nor do I want to be now. Good luck to and listen to the great advice you ae getting. Ciao!
