I'm still doing well it's only the second day. I don't have allot of time but....... My w came home before her usual time today. She was seeing her C on Tuesdays. When I saw her I asked "didn't you have a meeting today?" her: “no why would you say that?" Me: I thought you went every Tuesday. Her: oh that that's over with. I didn't say anything else. I have been having problems with my eye the last two day she asked me how my eye was doing and I told her it was bothering me earlier but it's ok now. I then told her I was stopping the pain killer. She didn't say anything. Then she left to take some leftovers to her mom's house she said ' ok I'm leaving now I'll see ya later" Kind of nice like. At first I was thinking ok well we should have a talk to see where we are at. Maybe we should go see a C together. But it was like calm settled between us. I don't know if I'm just feeling this because I am coming off of the drugs or what. Her words just kind of passed through me instead of cutting me. I think before I would have went into a panic mode as soon as I found out she was not seeing her C yet. But with this “calm” I kind of feel we are at the start again. Not the start of the OM but the start of building our R back. It’s like we have a clean slate. I am going to keep my mouth shut right now. Tomorrow I am going to ask her if she wants to go out Saturday I guess I will see what her reaction is then.
Keep your fingers crossed for me
And if I claim to be a wise man, well It surely means that I don't know
