Why do these things happen V

[789]

I will not let it defeat me, it justs sucks. Even though it does suck, I will take this for a long time if I know it will work out in the end, and in the meantime, I hope it works on my mentality to continue moving forward with my life.

[JR2007]

Try volunteering. It really takes your mind off yourself and puts it on others who could use your help. I'm trying to do more. It's a great diversion.

That or long-boarding

[789]

I have given so much of my time to others, I am now being selfish. I would go into work whenever they called, I would go help people at the drop of the hat, I did everything but spend time with my family. Now that I do not have that whole family, I know I should be the same, but this is also part of a 180, being available to family, not others.

[789]

Well so much for having my son one more nite. Now I get the next 12 days alone. So much for having that PMA.

[789]

She has an aunt and uncle coming thru town, they haven't seen him in a long while, so they all want to go out to dinner. Stupid me said whatever makes you happy.

[JR2007]

She has an aunt and uncle coming thru town, they haven't seen him in a long while, so they all want to go out to dinner. Stupid me said whatever makes you happy.

I know that sucks but it's the right thing to do right now. He'll be back. You'll talk to him on the phone, he'll be fine, you'll be fine. Don't worry.

[789]

Honestly, I don't know if I will be fine. I don't just have this on my mind, it is all of it, right now I am fighting the urge to just go buy beer and let it stop the feelings, it always worked in the past, I feel the world is just comming down around me and nothing can stop it.

[JR2007]

OK dude, but you know booze doesn't solve anything either. And if your W knew that you drank where would that get you? Be cool man, be cool.

You will be fine, this is a BLIP in time compared to what you have ahead of you. Don't forget this is all temporary, it isn't your life, it's just a test in your life right now.

Go to the movies, get a tub of popcorn and a soda and lose yourself for a few hours. At least that's not destructive.

I think I'm finally going to see Pirates. It's apparent my W isn't going to invite me

[catfan]

Drinking it "away" isn't the answer. If anything it only makes it worse. Trust me this is from experience. At least I can look back a bit and have a few funny memories about it and never did anything stupid like drive.

As JR hit me back with, prayer, that's the answer. Turn it over to God and he'll take care of you.

[789]

I know, took me the last couple hours to convince myself of that. I do have the experience of drinking, even been thru 30 days of rehab, something I do not want to repeat.