I was in a car accident 20 years ago. My right leg had to be amputated. I have learned to live with the things I cannot change due to this. I have a prosthetic leg and I get around fine. In fact new people I meet don’t even know. I just have a little limp. Any who I have what they call “phantom pains” All of the nerves that were going to my leg are still there they just stop at my knee. My brain does not know the leg is not there anymore. It just keeps getting signals from the nerves. For the first 18 years I have dealt with the pain. I have learned to “Tune it out”. Well 2 years ago I asked the doctor if there was some type of surgery that I could have that would take the pain away. He said no and started prescribing pain killers to me.
Monograph title HYDROCODONE/ACETAMINOPHEN - ORAL Phonetic pronunciation (hi-dro-CODE-own/ah-seet-ah-MIN-oh-fen) Common brand name(s) Lorcet, Lortab, Norco, Vicodin Uses This medication is a combination of a narcotic (hydrocodone) and a non-narcotic (acetaminophen) used to relieve moderate to severe pain. Hydrocodone works by binding to opioid receptors in the brain and spinal cord, and acetaminophen decreases the formation of prostaglandins, therefore relieving pain.
I have found that this has become a crutch and I have become addicted to it. I have not really used my mind in the last 2 years. I have been numbing my thinking with this stuff. Thanks to saffie she has pointed this out to me. I am on my second day without it. The first day was like I had a hang over all day. Today is better except my mind is looking for the buzz. Today is the day I realized I was addicted to it. I had no pain but I wanted it. (The drug not the pain). My first wife left me with a 3 month D and a 3 year old D. She was a cocaine addict I found out after she left. She was so far along that the drug meant more to her than our beautiful daughters. I raised them by myself until I met my current W. I don’t know How I can ever thank Saffie for saving me from becoming my ex wife. My son and wife mean more to me than any physical pain I could ever have. I can’t really describe it but I already feel different. I know I am still hooked but as long As I can keep it out of the house I can wait out the urge. Thanks everyone for listening or reading or whatever ya all do.
On the lighter side I am thinking about getting a tattoo…. I like pirates so I was thinking a skull and cross bones. Just a little one on my shoulder
Husband
And if I claim to be a wise man, well It surely means that I don't know
