look at my posts to Lonely Olive in "The End is Near" thread.
Saffie...time to find yourself, independent of anti-depressants and pain-killers.
Focus on that, the rest will take care of itself. You are probably wondering, "How can I find myself? I feel so lost."
Well there are certain things you can do that will help you begin...as you do them, the existential questions will be answered.
I copied this from my post to Olive.
Try a few.....
1. Take up new hobby/ rekindle old hobby.
2. Take up a martial art. They really build your self-esteem and sense of self-mastery/power. Mind/body coordination. Trust me. Not only will you look even hotter in that swimsuit of yours, you'll start move with cat-like grace, balance and poise.
3. Talk to some old friends. Good friends. Ask them, "What did you love about me? Who was I? Who do you remember me to be.?" Maybe ask them to write it out.
4. See some movies you might not ordinarily see. Something to jolt you mind/heart. I love Leaving Normal. Real chick-flick.
5. Read the Alchemist by Pablo Coelho.
6. Take a trip on your own. Week's vacation someplace you might not go. A back-packing trip. A canoe trip.
7. Take a three day retreat at a monastary.
8. Participate in a Habitat for Humanity Project.
9. Find some inner-city mission and spend a weekend helping the poor.
10. Volunteer at a homeless shelter/soup kitchen.
11. Start journaling your thoughts.
12. Spend every evening for three weeks writing down 4-5 things you are grateful for that day.
13. Re-kindle old friendships, make new friendships.
14. Start going to church if you already don't. Join a small group fellowship in your church if you already haven't.
15. Wake up 20 minutes early and go outside. Listen to the morning sounds. Give thanks. Say to God, "Hello. If you haven't noticed, I can use some spiritual vitamin B 12 right now. I'm ready for you to blow my mind. Do ANYTHING you want in my life."
16. Resolve that you want to become fabulously wealthy. ;-) Just kidding. It's not about the money. But have you ever wanted to start a new business?
17. Read the book What should I do with my Life? By Po Robinson. It's great stories about all different kinds of people who have re-invented themselves.
18. Read the book, Life After God by Douglas Coupland. It always moves me and makes me think. I often cry when I read it. Tears are a sign that something divine is happening.
