In need of help

[sadhearted]

Yeah it seems mine doesn't want to be at the house any longer then he HAS to be. People have observed maybe it's because he doesn't want to "feel". I don't know.

Yeah I hear ya. Today is okay well at the moment. An hour from now may not be who knows.

My oldest told my mom that he misses daddy more after he's spent time with him like the weekend. I started picking them up instead of him dropping them back off. So far that seems to go easier on him.

Oh yeah we see each other every other weekend and if he has to come to the house (he has his own side company and it's in the garage). So he doesn't come real often.

At the moment I don't have a job. I've been a SAHM for 9 out of the last 10 years. Trying to find a job since I have no income other then what he pays me for the kids. So far no luck.

Yeah see I think part of my problem is I take what he says as gospel. When I probably shouldn't. Cause even when we're together and he says something good it may not actually be the case you know. So yesterday I said I probaly shouldn't believe what he says. Which is what my stepdad keeps telling me.

Oh yeah I saw that earlier today. I've been known to snoop too. In the past I've found some not nice things but not in recent. I mean he's never slept with anyone else but there have been conversations that he shouldn't have had. Which later he apologized for and recommited to me. Course now he's not living here soo.. Oh but the thing with that is all his stuff is still here. He took what clothes he needed and that's it. Everything else is here.