In need of help

[sadhearted]

Yeah roller coaster is the best way to describe it. Especially on days where I'm up, down, sad, mad....

I actually just ordered it today so it will get here in a few days.

Yeah not a bad idea but there are days were it hurts to see him you know? We live right behind a school so I go there and walk around sometimes while the kids play on the playground there.

Yeah it hurts. Glad to I'm not alone in this. Not that it's nice for others cause I wouldn't wish this on my worst enemy. I think the worst is knowing it's possible he will break my kids hearts. At the moment my oldest says daddy has an apartment but will be back home in a year. He apparently asked his dad something about coming back home and my H told him he was afraid too.....