I know they are my friends, and they also know what I want. It just gets me pissed, it is like they want me to end it now, wonder if they actually know something I don't.
As for darkness, it sucks man. I am trying to stay busy. Just dropped son off for school. He is great, even beat me in a couple of games of darts last nite.
I don't know how you do it and be such a chipper chihuaha at the same time.
Your friends don't know ANYTHING. Put that out of your head right now. They're just trying to help you feel better fast. Sometimes fast isn't the best answer.
What choice do I have? I can let this defeat me, or I can let it create a new stronger me. I prefer the new stronger me. You know I want to go home. You know I miss my W and S terribly. But I can only control ME. I believe it and I'm acting on it. I am also being supported by my Heavenly Father. My faith in Him grows daily. I know He wants my family together. I know He's removing obstacles from my path. And I also know He wants me to learn. Sometimes the lessons take more time than we'd like. I remind myself of that every day and I stay close to him through prayer and I feel good. He is filling the void in my heart temporarilly until my family can fill it again. How could I possibly look at the blessings I'm getting from Him and remain despondent, depressed, or hopeless. I can't, it would be way too ungrateful, and I already did my share of that over the last 11 years, I won't do it again.
We can talk ourselves into defeat or we can talk ourselves into victory - we are creatures of our thinking.
3/31/07 - Hit with a brick, leaving the dent there...
