Madonna/Whore Complex - Part 6

[COG]

Heywyre,

Ok so why am I feeling rejected?

It's OK to feel rejected, just don't act rejected. Instead, GAL of your own.

I think the part that ticks me off the most is, as much as I like this guy, I really don't like his behaviour lately.

Hey, that's judgmental and controlling. Quite normal, but quite unhealthy for YOU. Somehow you've got to find a way to let go. Realize that your H is a big boy, and it is not your job to control who he hangs out with or what he does. Part of GALng is to create this atmosphere. Believe me I understand your feelings and motivation. My W hangs out with certain people that scare the heck out of me too. Like one beautiful D woman, another M woman who is'nt happy in her M, and several MEN that she works out with. Oh I'd change a lot of her habits if I could, but I CAN'T! It's been much better for ME to GAL, let go, and trust. It really lightened up the tension in our R.

It just makes me want to scream

So go to the closet, alone, and scream. Then go GAL. When you have created a life of your own then things will change for you. This is about YOU, not your H. It's up to YOU and YOU alone to find fulfillment in life. The longer you continue to expect your H to somehow make your life fulfilling, the longer you will be disappointed and wanting to scream. He can not do it, he will NEVER be able to do it for you. It's up to YOU my Heywyre. You CAN do this, you CAN create the life you long for, but you can not expect any other human being to create it for you.

Just start with a lump of clay.

God Bless,

COG