Tiny Ray of Light....IV

[NMHurting]

H - I had intended to go for lessons on wed but if your going i choose not to..so i need to know..and if your nto paying for it I need to know, since I have no extra money.

M - So you want me to pay for lessons that I'm no longer allowed to go to?

H - i dont want you to go this week thats for sure. Your "old" self is rearing its ugly head and I choose not to be around it, and if that means I have to quit the lessons then thats what I will do. Your holding the lessons over me..so if i dont jump when you say so you take them away..same old same old..

M - I am not holding them over your head, I'm sorry you feel that way. I was asking a clarifying question.

But the whole agreement was to allow me to be involved if I agreed to pay for them. That was the original deal. The lessons were as much about family time as it was riding time. It was about being involved in something important to you and D12. It was about the chance to show you my improvements. Now you are asking for no face time so you won't know how I change or not.

Again, you are holding my past against me when I have let your past go. That is not a fair playing field.

I will pay for them this week, and I will step to the side for this week. But I will not do it week after week after week. That would be using me and I won't be a doormat. I will give you the space you are asking for. We will re-evaluate from there. If you choose not to attend other times, that is up to you. I will still take D12.

As far as the loan and stuff, I don't think it's best we discuss it at this time.