ACCKKK - I just realized I am going to NYC NEXT week! Where did the time go? Now to run around like a chicken with his head cut off....gotta get enough food for pets, find my dad a new doctor (old one left state and having difficulty finding one that takes medicare), make sure his pills are ok, get dad's bday present and throw a little party (maybe just DD and me right now - when we come back more?), pack, money, lawn, work, find out how to get to hotel from airport.....<breathing into bag> but I do have tickets to 4th of July fireworks from cruise ship and Wicked.
Things are going well. H is in total withdrawal. DD emailed a "Happy Father's Day" and he didn't respond. Very sad. I did find out that DD has ADD and we are trying medication. It feels like the "flavor of the month" but if it helps her, it will be worth it. She gets straight A's on homework but fails the tests, that and some other behaviors (mess, freaks at too many instructions, etc.). She is also working too much for her age(she's 15 and worked 43 hours last week). There were some emergencies at her work (employee had seizure and got carted away to hospital) and she said she would work over. IL's made statements that made me feel like a bad mom on both the ADD and the work. I am trying not to let them get to me but what if they are right? <stomping on nagging "bad mom" feeling>
Friend gave me her wine lesson since she had a problem and it was wonderful. Talked to alot of neat people. It was weird though. I thought for a brief moment that H would have like this (someone made a comment about couples) and I had a moment flash to what felt like a future moment with H there beside me with a glass of wine. It was really strong. Oh well. Yes, I am weird.
Sitting quietly doing nothing, the flowers bloom effortlessly.
bomb: Jan 25, 2006 not seen since DD moved in with H - 9/1/08 H filed for divorce - 11/2008 Divorce dismissed by courts - 4/2010 still nothing
